=Halient

I just got back from dinner with the one person who i can spend time with that i can be 100% myself and not be judged, after somewhat of a major moment of complete clearity i have come to the conclusion that the only things in life that have truly driven me are are the expectations of others. I have come to the point that i am going to say fuck it and do what i want and stop trying to meet everyone elses expectations. I have recently picked up a few items so i can make a bit more money so i can continue on my ultimate goal of getting the fuck out of here and falling off the map. I am going to hold off on jumping back in hospitality for the moment or only work localy. I may be moving in with her in a few months so i can get my head together. At this point I have realised that the only things that are giving me pleasure is violence, danger or booze. I need to find new outlets so in order to get pleasure out of life since it is cut short so fast.

I am also going to be looking for someone who i can share my time with who stimulates me bothe mentally and physically

I recieved a phone call about going back to consulting again and im thinking about it, I havent worked in hospitality for about 9 months and i am starting to get the itch. I am consitering going back but I am not sure if i am willing to do 18 months under contract. Every time i go into this it kind of sucks because i put my personal life on hold. At this point I am single so there is not anyone i am leaving behind but i am still kind of torn. I gotta think about this for a couple of days.

After the last year of complete crazyness in my life I am starting to get back on track. So with that said I am going back to my designs so i should start posting more of my origional works both in photography (im looking at a new D80) and digital creations I posted Broken Sky today and yes it is completly a digital creation.
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I am launching HalientDesigns.com as soon as i am able to get a couple of client sites finished.

On a personal front I am getting back into the dating world but instead of the normal brain dead girls that I have been getting involved with. I am adding a new rule and that is that she has to enjoy art and have a embrace their dark side.

As far as the rest of life goes I will put it together and deal with